What Is Stopping Me?

I have wanted to write for oh so long and actually have written a couple of things! I spent an excruciating three years of my life writing and then rewriting and never feeling confidant that what I was saying was interesting or informative. I wrote a book about relationships called "Kiss Your Frog" and a children's book titled "Do Bees Have Bellybuttons?" I sent "Do Bees Have Bellybuttons" in to a couple of publishers and was rejected. I have never even allowed anyone to read through "Kiss Your Frog". I was so devastated by the rejection that I have never tried publishing again.

So, I got this brilliant idea that I would blog every day and just say what was on my mind putting words to the activities and projects and lessons I am learning. The easy part is the writing. The hard part is clicking on the "PUBLISH POST" button on this page!

I realize that pushing "that button" I am opening myself to millions of different opinions and personalities which I think will be a difficult and yet incredible experience for me personally.

A little about me: I am a 43 year old married woman with five children, a son-in-law and a grandson. I have many interests. I love music, reading, writing, cooking, baking, painting, and the ocean although I live nowhere near an ocean. There is just something about the ocean that fills my whole being with peace and wonder.

A perfect day for me would be sitting in a beach chair with an umbrella for shade and a wonderful book, open pages lying across my lap. A gentle breeze coming in from the ocean. The sound of the waves breaking on the sand and sea birds whispering in their high pitched calls from a distance reminding me that I am living in that moment. That is where I go when I need a little reprieve from the happy, frustrating, beautiful chaos that is my life, which I love, by the way.

The first thing I am going to attempt as I share my adventures with all of you will be oil painting! I have created one painting so far but I really have no idea what I am doing and although my painting turned out alright I have so much to learn! My greatest stumbling block is FEAR! But, because I have a great desire to conquer this fear I am going to share in all glory and failure my journey with you.

We can journey together!

Leesey Lou